There's nothing I can do but laugh at how stupid this world of people act,
how sad, this character of mine, Crying Buddha, has become, he must laugh
even when he just wants to cry, to eat his pain, his sorrow with laughter,
really he can't make up his mind either to cry or to laugh at people,
even while he's laughing, he's crying deep inside, where no one can see him,
see, it's better to laugh at the world than to cry, since no one feels my pain,
nobody understands anyone else, their pain, their joy, or their sorrow,
only the world knows how to show anger as pain, so I must laugh and cry,
they are angry at me and someone in their past, hidden in their sorrow,
how they forget the past and act out against me in rage like my father,
if they can drown the pain with alcohol and drugs, they willingly do so,
nothing is easier than to numb the sorrow but it returns with rage,
given time, rage subsides into an apathy beyond hope, beyond help,
I can do little but cry or laugh at people, to hide my emotions,
creatures who walk this earth like monsters full of pain, raging inside, feelings
ask only to be heard, to feel love and be loved, but we rage like monsters,
nothing to do but wait, to find a place to rage and cry, laugh at the world,
diminish the sorrow, transform it into hate, hate knows the fear within,
only hate, unwilling to work through emotions, burns down all the bridges,
burns down the cathedral and laughs at the sorrow others feel together,
under no conditions does hate ever feel pain, hate feels the ecstasy,
the joy of someone else in pain, the very pain they feel deep inside, hate
laughs at stupidity and acts accordingly, hate cannot process pain,
as it takes work and tears to transform deep sorrow into love for others,
under these conditions, it is easy for hate to find others who hate,
given the apathy others feel through neglect, we cannot rise above
human suffering, work without help, full of tears, only the rich look down,
at our stupidity, hide in their safe spaces, until someone destroys
the Twin Towers with planes, an unthinkable act, but hate thought up a plan,
how love can do nothing but look on in horror, as everything transforms
out of the fear hate felt, hate showed the world sorrow, someone else brought the hate,
when hate was young, a child in another country, a foreigner brought hate,
stupidity begets the ancestry of hate, from Cain, the murderer,
to everyday people, ordinary, their names, just names, until they act,
until they cause grave harm, the bodies turn to dust, turn to ashes, to smoke,
pretend we can forgive, we can address the pain, move beyond the sorrow,
in forgiveness we find the opportunity to choose never to rage,
dull the pain with razors and knives to cut ourselves, to show others our rage,
this world of people act out of distress and fear, we cannot understand
how others can do harm, when they, too, have been harmed, or they know that to harm
is a political act, an act of power, the power to do harm,
sovereign ability to enter a country and cause terror, for years
we allowed our nation to invade foreign lands in the name of freedom,
of democracy, hate begets an ancestry of hatred and terror,
religion used tactics such as this to protect its people in Crusades,
left with their emotions, they discovered new worlds, and slaughtered the masses,
diminish their sorrow by the blood they unleash, they feel no pain, they hate,
only to cause terror, terror begets terror, ships with human cargo,
for slaves and slavery as political acts brought power, abundance,
poverty to the bound, the captured, the enslaved, the price we pay to feel
emotions beyond love, emotions that cause pain, suffering and sorrow,
only people know how to hurt and harm others, for centuries, we take,
pretend to show good will, Manifest Destiny, we slaughter the masses,
left with our emotions, how to process the past, to forgive, move beyond,
even as I struggle with my own suffering, my own sorrow, my pain,
answers do not arise out of ashes, the dust remains dust, the smoke blows
coolly away, bury the past in the ocean, to create coral reefs,
this will save the planet from our stupidity, my laughter and my tears.
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