Oneiros ~ Wednesday, 20 February 2019

I woke up from a dream, where I had met my dad outside with the sheriff out by a gas station. He asked me a question, as if he were worried I was trying to leave, "Are you planning to go to Goa?" I told him, "My passport has expired." Then I saw the sheriff was overly upset with me for some reason, like really unfriendly, but then he lightly punched my arm in the deltoids, like it was no big deal, and they were on their way, three squad cars drove away. My dad and I were left standing in the open with nothing much to say. He was asleep in bed when I had left the house. He must have followed me, or something of that sort, to arrive with the law in tow, three officers, one being the sheriff. I had apologized for the cats which must mean he was staying with me, somewhere like Naperville, where my parents had come to visit just one time. They were upset, back then, at how tired I was after working all day at the bookstore, coming home and wanting to watch TV with my ex-wife, she wasn't real friendly either, like the sheriff, nor real hospitable, I acted like a jerk, like it was no big deal they came to Chicago to pay us a visit, not on a vacation, since they hated it here. They vowed never to come back to visit us here, it was our falling out, until we had divorced, then it was a mistake, all just one big mistake, at least, until dad died. Strange how a dream can make me remember what is important in my life. Some random incident from the past gets triggered for whatever reason, it was only a dream, but I hardly ever have dreams about my dad. It's been over five years since he died, a long time. I think I had better call my mom sometime soon. We don't talk anymore, at least, not on the phone, and never in person, and rarely if ever do we talk in dreams. Would it count just the same, since life is just a dream? What was with the sheriff? I wonder about that, too, why law enforcement? How strange to see my dad in a dream, how random, and not give him a hug.