Monday, February 13, 2023

Vexed Dislocation ~ Monday, February 13, 2023

What I really love is belief in the process that we get better

How and when or why nobody knows for certain; then, it just happens

Ask me no questions, I may never get back home but I continue

To play with logic to make sense of the absurd as a go-getter

I get lost at times, I lose my way from the goal but then I return

Remember I've but no responsibilities except to dragons

Except they exist in our imagination not in the sinew

As a metaphor, the universe as body, the speculative

Let me return home, a home I have never been as I cannot learn

Let alone enjoy anything in this country for my privation

Yet deprivation others suffer equally so what is the point

Love is all, they say and in this I am lucky but explanation

Of course, lets reason guide a soul without passion, is time out of joint

Vexed dislocation, I used to play drums, a dream now vegetative

Eclipse sun and moon, the poets don't use these words as sentimental

Informed by naive standards of debased writing, the criterion

Structured by a break, always a break, with the past, continuity

Banished to exile, like me in America, this occidental

Episode lacks hope, as a drummer, a poet, or an old runner

Leave him well alone, he has issues or demons, Old Hyperion

If to die in youth is a blessing for no one, perspicuity

Ends the big picture as an unnecessary addition to thought

Focus on the good, the beautiful, and the true, as a tail gunner

It would be easy to face death each time I flew, I am not to blame

No one is to blame but consequences entail, enfold the curtains

Take consolation in the eternal return of the same, my shame

Haunted by ideas of the Afterlife, stupid theories as gardens

Each philosopher with her hard-won PhD, her soul, sold and bought

Process offers depth to a world of surfaces, a textual weave

Remember my birth in a city far away, not unlike my friend

Only she was born in Japan, it means little, not in her background

Country of birthright, completely arbitrary, nothing up my sleeve

Except a rabbit inside a velvet top hat, magician, no thanks

Simply no career, dead-end jobs, no confidence, money as an end

Success or failure, depends on your perspective, I'm healthy and sound

Trust superstition to knock on wood, not speak thoughts aloud for gods' ears

How it seems a mess, total loss in readership, does my gun shoot blanks

Ask me no questions, I ask myself too many, at a loss for words

Trust me, I give up, what's the point of going on, no one cares to read

Wicked as a child, I acted out to events, these ancient potsherds

Enter dysfunction, the child, a moth in a web, spider spins to bleed

Guarantees exist not for biological families, sustain tears

Even a worse word the poets will not accept, sentimental schlock

Track geographic, I stay away from toxic people, thus few friends

Better to explore, live with a purpose, even if it's just a sham

Enter my sorrow, a lifetime of suffering, time becomes a clock

Transform the bitter into sweet kindness and joy, don't make me vomit

Truculent and fierce, I accept the bad and worse, justify the ends

Elicit the means as process to make better, the ghost of the clam

Remember the wounds eventually heal, the scars, bees in my bonnet

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