Thursday, July 15, 2021

Work in Progress: A Paradox ~ Thursday, July 15, 2021

The Good, the Beautiful and the True: seems the world is perfect as it is

Helpless to feel beauty in anything other than a pretty woman

Erroneous notions of goodness and the truth follow every footstep

Given human nature to freak out at insects as xenophobia

Orders us to accept only the familiar, no wonder our terror

Observing a cockroach slowly climbing a wall and flying towards us

Despite meditation, breath control and study, I am not unperturbed

Terrified my mind fights with this reality, my body attacks it

However, it is swift; it, too, wants to survive; and so it hides from sight

Egregious acts unkind make us want to kill them, to do away with them

But they have as much right to the world as we do, they appear beautiful

Each to their own; repulsed as we are, we kill them as we kill cockroaches

Affected by beauty, we see the opposite, and strike out in terror

Unto themselves, they are as beautiful, sexy, ugly and hideous

To each other as we ourselves appear in kind, humans are cockroaches

I saw the cockroach fly and went into action with my sandal in hand

Forgetting my sitting meditation, my mind perturbed, agitated

Unlocked fury to kill, not to reflect on this, a giant insect flew

Life is so beautiful in all of its glory but I cannot fathom

As my experience cannot feel this beauty, only as a concept

No conceptual thought will override feelings of deep-seated terror

Difficult to assume that equanimity is at hand yet so far

Try as I might, my mind cannot overcome thought, my indoctrination

However much I try, I have learned in the past to destroy the other

Enter my reflection in the mirror, my mind makes sense of reversal

Truth and the true, hidden within the otherness of the cockroach, myself

Religion teaches us to accept the other as we accept ourselves

Ugly and hideous creatures with diseases, who are we but just that

Even in our beauty, we are sickness, disease, suffering and sorrow

Seems the world is perfect as it is, perfection in our imperfection

Experience allows the truth to settle down the mind to encounter

Equally both the strange and the beautiful as not incongruous thoughts

Murder is beautiful in the eyes of the sick. "What is truth?" asked Pilate

Suffer anxiety in our need to survive in comfort, unchallenged

Tranquility to sit clear-eyed and unperturbed, to act and not react

Humans are cockroaches, the survival instinct makes us want to destroy

Equal in our beauty, we discern the other as a threat to comfort

Witness the truth to bear, to carry forth unto generations henceforth

Only, I am not Him, I am not Jesus Christ, I am not The Buddha

Restless in the city, I run as my practice, to still body and mind

Locomotion, a train of thought, my consciousness, a stream to cross, to bridge

Destination unknown, the fear of the other is on the other shore

Instincts no longer make sense of reality, intuitions hold back

Seen from the other shore, I become the Buddha, always and already

Perfect in delusion, all thoughts, feelings, and deeds without the diamond mind

Endlessly we circle, a wagon caravan, to protect our own lives

Reject this mind as false, empty without ideas, deception is the truth

Forge ahead with body, do and act without thought, not thoughtlessly unkind

Enter childhood again, a slate wiped clean to start over and see the world

Crystal vision shimmers in light as the cockroach hides from light in darkness

The dichotomy is not other but the same, we are still the cockroach

Ask yourself this question, "What makes me different?" Ego knocks at the door

Simply mocking the real, ego identifies with the same, not other

I am every cockroach that I destroy, I kill myself in each moment

Tranquility to sit still, unperturbed by thoughts, by flying cockroaches

I see beyond logic, beyond all argument, beyond antinomies

Still I cannot undo the indoctrination, the pledge of allegiance...

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