Tuesday, October 30, 2018

Betrayal ~ Tuesday, 30 October 2018

If tomorrow were just another day 
for not even nothing lasts forever 

today I understood why my father 
on his deathbed made peace over the phone 
maybe if I had been there my brother 
on the west coast wouldn't be mad at me 
reason stands in the way to melt butter 
righteousness makes a man set in his ways 
only his memories catch up at death 
without regrets he lives without a care 

with his own family under his belt 
even his own brother means but nothing 
really our own mother kept us apart 
ever since my brother left for college 

juvenile delinquent they thought I was 
under the flag of deep conspiracy 
still my parents beat me until I played 
the scapegoat of horror and ran away 

away I hid for days not once but twice 
nobody knew I slept with the spiders 
on top of dirt beneath a house a guest 
trembling with excitement to no avail 
helpless without funding or real support 
evasive tactics come to a swift end 
reality sets in with depression 

different than my family as a scholar 
and a gentleman as friends always say 
yet the ghosts of childhood never leave me 

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