Denial is a river of shame behind closed doors no one ever admits,
endless memories stream through tears in therapy groups for adult children,
no one accepts trauma, damage from the bottle, to destroy your childhood,
in a functional home, no one on the outside notices the danger,
alcohol changes love, creates a guilty soul, a witness to horror,
little does anyone know what happens behind closed doors, nor do they care,
in our society, a universal theme, violence against love,
share the truth in small groups, anonymously, safe,
ancient as a river in Egypt, our denial creates society,
rivers change history like blood through arteries flowing through the body,
if heredity means genetics continues, flows through generations,
versions of truth remain hidden, silent, bloody, behind closed doors, crimson,
egos and attitudes inflate as a defense against the truth, denial
reaches beyond the grave to keep mouths shut, secrets hidden and forgotten,
only love, acceptance of the past, embrace truth and learn to move forward,
forward through memories, the endless stream triggers experiences lost,
shame eats away the soul, the spirit, consciousness, the mind becomes a waste,
history must accept the violence hidden under a shallow grave,
attitudes change when guilt transforms into kindness, unconditional love,
maybe a dog or cat, an animal you care for, you take care of, love,
endless memories stream through both body and mind, muscles remember fear,
behind closed doors, anger unleashes violence, irrational, drunken,
enter the world of fear and hate and repression, suppress the memories,
hidden behind closed doors, the front door, the neighbors know nothing of the past,
inside the home, beyond the front door, more closed doors, hidden within the shame,
neighbors can never know, lies cover up the facts, the facade of normal,
denial is a river of disease in the blood flowing through genetics,
closed doors remain unlocked to the future to flow backwards into the past,
leaving judgment aside, accepting the anger through love, gentle, safely,
only recovery steps forward and backward, stable and unstable,
strikingly, a backhand and a fat, bloody lip remains a memory,
even though acceptance admits the facts, the truth remains behind closed doors,
denial strengthens falsehoods, the need to cover up the past as dishonest,
doors of the mind perceive memories in hindsight as a survival skill,
over and over time sticks and becomes unstuck as you remember touch,
only now you mimic how touch affected you, physical memories,
remember painful touch, hard to forgive, almost impossible, tragic,
still your life continues with or without your mind, your presence for others,
needless to say, closed doors persist within the mind, the structure of the home,
only architecture cannot deconstruct pain, fear, terror or horror,
one life to live, it slips away as childhood drifts into lost memories,
no one can help to change, or transform, history within the family home,
endless memories stream through tears, active triggers of memories long past,
everlasting sorrow remains until a change overcomes memories,
versions of bad conscience persist in the family, you cannot help others,
even if you engage in loving discussions, the past remains the past,
remember honesty is not their policy, denial is their one truth,
accept you cannot change others, even loved ones, your life is this river,
denial is a river you let be as a fact of other's persistence,
maybe your cat or dog helps you to recover the time of your childhood,
in time you learn to play again as children play, healthy as an adult,
trust whomever you choose, you choose how you live now, accepting non-judgment,
still memories persist, let go through acceptance, your own lovingkindness.
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