Fair Fair ~ Tuesday, December 31, 2024

Boys get hurt and never talk about it
ouch is not in their vocabulary
yellow as scrambled eggs, cowards speak up
suck it up and feel the pain, all the shit

goes down the drain but their reputation
everyone knows how the pain gets scary
talk about it and word on the street, yup

how word gets around quicker than wildfire
understand, tears are an aberration
real pain is relative, boys never show
trauma to a therapist or a friend

aberrations wail, their salty tears glow
no one cares for the weak, lawyers defend
defenseless victims of hate crimes, admire

nervous wrecks never, bite their nails and fret
endless bickering about the dishes
victims of hate know only their abuse
effaced from the map of history, bet
rivers of blood, sweat and tears, work makes free

transient, rough sleepers, no one wishes
anger upsets their daily commute, truce
language games, egocentric empty shells
kiss the hermit crabs goodbye, their decree

aggression wins, hoodwinked by the godless
backstabbing, vindictive power players
oligarchs in white shirts, red ties, they mess
up the apple cart, order bruised layers
triumph as the President, hear the bells

in the church belfry, the bats flee elsewhere
take their business elsewhere, heard, fair fair

Nocturnal Genderfuck ~ Monday, December 30, 2024

Sorry, I lost my gum drops in my sleep
ordinarily, no, you wouldn't care
really, it is such a small stain, you know
really, I was simply counting black sheep
yes, I know, I will wash the sheets right now

I get these emissions at night, I share

liberally with the homeless, but grow
obviously confused when it all shrinks
suddenly (can I use that word), but how
timelessly ephemeral, it passes

maybe not unlike Walter Francis White
yet, how salacious this poet sasses

general public, not the band, but right
under their nose, their leader never thinks
maybe I'm wrong, maybe I just tell lies

decidedly, I must die as the worst
rebel anarchist who never shows up
originally, my fear was of spies
perhaps, I'm such a loser, no one sees
suffering and sorrow, hunger and thirst

incidentally, as steps on the path
no one sees with understanding the cup

much imagined as the grail, as I fail
you, my reader, as without a fresh breeze

seeing watches the ships as they set sail
lest I decide not to decide and sneeze
each day, I wonder if I can do math
each day, I wake lonely as it must please
pleasant peasants with plague on ships with fleas

Glug, Glug, Glug ~ Friday, December 27, 2024

Worship, reverence and adoration
honesty, sweet as lies, nourishes bees
answer questions, soon arguments arise
transport deceased bodies for cremation

honesty kills apian colonies
answer what lies beyond the seven seas
please stop, observe dark clouds obscure blue skies
please tell bell tower bats to eat putrid flesh
entertain parish priests with policies
nothing but images within a hall
entertain the worthy with a basket
dread darkness, the mirror, the call to fall

worship welcomes the same in a casket
honesty lies within the Christmas crèche
entertain parishioners with a book
nothing but lies told to support the wraith

worship phantoms, images create twists
entertain false notions, the need to cook

please pound fists as gavels judge the matter
ordained as ordinary, restore faith
underground the Übermensch binds weak wrists
restore faith in the wraith, in politics
entertain politicians with chatter
dread idle chatter, sparrows burn the bush

murder apian colonies, honey
intensive identity, Hindu Kush
letters form words, believe in the money
kiss papal rings, support the crucifix

intensive inventions, mythology
nothing to confess, faith in nothingness
transport milk poured into milk to reveal
ordained objections to lithology

murder the stone surface, describe the rock
intensive vested interests, wickedness
letters litter infrastructure, conceal
kisses and more behind closed doors, the shock

Zaboo Kitty kicks your head in again ~ Wednesday, December 25, 2024

Stone is a handsome demon racing fast
lithe and supple as a ballet dancer
objectified as to function and form
wisdom leads a runner to process past
nightmares hiding like truth in a closet
ephemeral as clouds, how to answer
surface questions in regards to the dorm
suffering the sorrow of first year lack

casual bystanders tried to reset
reductive thinking by offering praise
exactly the opposite of what works
essentially for guidance as to raise
programmed behaviors overcome by quirks
success is a slow process in the black

üpfenstägen was never a real choice
pretend it means something, then let it go

orders are orders to control, contain
negate affirmative response when voice

marks the spot with an X as if treasure
emancipated slave robots for show

tiny flecks in rivers of gold, obtain
obedience lessons at the dog school

bundles of ideas weigh heavy, pleasure
upholds the one value within self hate
remove the obstacles elephant boy
yes, the men cannot see beyond the gate

marching orders to defy, a boy toy
emulates death, one breath, Stone is a tool

The Eternal Return of Time ~ Saturday, December 21, 2024

How can I convey the visceral pain
of being too old to return but still
when I remember my childhood, it stabs

cuts me through listening to a song, strain
as I must to get through it to the end
now I feel I no longer have a will

I am now wary and now must keep tabs

cornered by my experience, I cry
only the tears never tumble, I bend
not from the hips but at the knees to pick
visions, as I imagine, off the floor
exactly when did I become this sick
yesterday, decades ago, shut the door

touch my palms to the ground, how I must try
help me, sweet Jesus, I am a sinner
each day, I dig my grave for no reason

victim of persona, the mask of loss
invent a tool to sit and make dinner
suck in each breath full of sorrow, I drown
cutting garlic, onions, bad faith, treason
experience in lies, thoughts stolen, toss
reason out the window, logic is a lack
attention to detail, I wear a crown
lightly cocked at an angle, no angel

present in appearance but a donkey
as it brays, I remember my pain pill
if to see no evil, the first monkey
needlessly gouged his eyes, all is black

Whenever the Ends Justify the Means ~ Saturday, December 21, 2024

I was once a drummer in a punk band

was it all lip service they fed us, then
accolades, cult of personality
slips through my fingers like grains of blonde sand

once a drummer always a drummer, no
no, facts are facts, practice makes perfect, when
circumstances hit the fan, no one cares
even if you have musicality

as I grew up into an adult, throw

drumsticks into the wall like sharpened knives
really it happened only once, anger
undermines perspective, full of passion
maybe this life wasn't for me, banger
mash, gravy when food becomes high fashion
even the kitchen, I failed with my shares
really, what is the point making a fuss

in this world, competition, dog eats dog
nobody cares unless you're at the top

argue about equity on the bus

passersby destroyed by greed and desire
until our turn to Worstward Ho, a cog
not only loose but neglected, the slop
kindness doles out for love, their words on fire

brutal to never play again, my friends
acted like this was normal and moved on
no, I was too fucked up, my mind was gone
drugs, glorious drugs, justify the ends

Autumn in Wintertime ~ Friday, December 20, 2024

At the Lululemon, love at first sight
the customer is always right is wrong

take a young woman and an older man
how the sparks fly, in his mind, they are tight
except, she is at work, working the floor

London observes from above the small throng
under the guise of security, span
lightning bolts to measure the length of sound
under Doppler effect, heard from the door
lost pitch value, in waves, lingers in ears
emulates a siren on the beach, call
me old-fashioned, love wipes away the years
old men in tears weep before women small
nevermore beautiful than a deer found

little more than an image in a dream
observed in a rear view mirror, so close
virtually, forever, more or less
eternity in a nutshell, a scream

advises the older man to observe
time as not on his side, another dose

fixes syncopated break beats, address
inferiority complexes fast
riddled with spent shells unseen since the curve
slides a fastball south into a sinker
troubles in Ulster, decades lost and dead

signals a peace accord, whilst to tinker
in the basement workshop, silent, unfed
granted amnesty, since then, the die cast
humanity cannot bear the red scare
threats to love, old and new, bid adieu, bear

No Resistance ~ Saturday, December 14, 2024

Raised on the cult of personality
ask yourself why we believe in people
in very specific people to lead
servants of the god of vested interest
each day, avuncular nepotism
drives the economics of capital

obsessed with ego and with persona
no one goes unscathed by such politics

trust not in masks publicly worn to hide
how disingenuous and false their stride
engaged to deceive the people with words

critique reflects language in a mirror
until the gods of power and deceit
level the playing field with equity
trust resides in hope as false promises

obtain a disclaimer or a waiver
for travel abroad, a visa to work

professionally elsewhere, but not here
everywhere else the world awaits details
repercussions for politics, for choice
sugar is a poison for some, not all
obviously suffer, some even thrive
noticeably affected by the cause
arguments arise regarding fair play
law and order reconceived, dismantled
industry pertains to the war complex
transformed to invade and to overwhelm
yellow, we survive, yolk on our faces

Bad Faith ~ Saturday, December 14, 2024

La Mauvaise foi

[1]

I am not what I say I am, I am

an elephant returned to the graveyard
memories come to die so I may live

needlessly suffering, a pathos clam
open and close, open and close, the past
takes over the present, a pickup card

a deck without jokers, floored, I forgive
no one but myself as a child, sorrow

emanates out of pain, a shadow cast
lovingly by the light, longing to hide
eclipsed by lunacy, madness, and bliss
pray to Gaṇeśa for luck, efface pride
happily ignorant of wisdom, kiss
animosity goodbye, tomorrow
nervously before I awake, reborn
through reincarnation, world full of scorn

[2]

I was born in Bombay, the second son

as unwanted as a used, bloody rag
memories flood my consciousness at times

no one imagines life is never fun
only children of abusive parents
that there was abuse is given, I sag

as a man without guidance, without crimes
not to think of myself a criminal

as neglect is not overt, aberrants
not only form groups but form music bands
if I were smart as a savvy adult
maybe I would not struggle to hold hands
as if love were anything to exult
left alone, the shame was subliminal

[3]

I know nothing of the alcoholic

as an adult, I suffered as a child
maybe I was much too wild, all my fault

as a clueless child, I prayed to Moloch

how I longed to be devoured by the god
until I learned better, I was too wild
mythology taught me to run and vault
as a child, I never could get away
not from family, their sense of humor, odd

but I was given food, clothing, shelter
even now I cannot complain of love
if I sound ungrateful, helter skelter
never straight but round and round with a shove
given from behind, Salaam Bombay!

[4]

I return to Mumbai a grown-ass man

ancient to the infant who left by plane
maybe my soul met Icarus in flight

as he crashed and burned, as if he could span

meteoric heights to stumble and slam
aspirations into the sea, insane
noble shadow, the waxwing slain, not bright

Duḥkha ~ Tuesday, December 10, 2024

What does it mean to write philosophy
how to communicate the breadth of thought
as ideas breathe emptiness into life
turn upside-down faith in theosophy

demonstrate in language beyond belief
obtain status with concepts sold and bought
entitlement and privilege cut through strife
shrug off the slavery of words, language

in faith, leads suffering beyond all grief
transforms practice in delusions of sense

make practice make perfect beyond the good
enter illusion, past and future tense
argue past the emptiness of dead wood
nuzzle forgotten books, scents that sandwich

trust in systems between anarchic wit
obligations to ivory ethics

witness the horrific, shudder to think
reasonably, horses champ at the bit
insanity to believe in science
transcendental mythos as aesthetics
essentially blind to the unknown, drink

phantom deer blood, rituals of mankind
haunted by victims of torture, nonsense
inherits the inhabitants of Earth
lick their wounds like a dog licks her anus
obliged to enjoy misery since birth
soak up the sauce with bread, face of Janus
observes both forwards and backwards to find
pity for the living, wandering blind
hopelessly lost, helpless as a child found
yearning as an adult for help, unsound

Zecchino ~ Friday, December 6, 2024

Sequins shimmer like Venetian gold coins
hungry for battle or, the hunt with bow
each quiver, fletched arrows, nimble and quick

worshipful from the crown down to the loins
artful, the old codger watches his hawk
lithe, agile and graceful, she fells a doe
kindness and the love of blood sport, dark, thick
sable tresses tumble in threefold locks

ingenious curls engineered as to gawk
needlessly, at beauty, they stare, awkward

buggers, Albigensian heretics
eradicated, none to preach the Word
age and sex disregarded, bundle sticks
underneath the stakes to smoke out the fox
tunnels underground, what history lost
yolk in the face of the Church, teach pure hate

late capitalism, the current stage
inherit inequality, no cost
kindness kills the Cathars with ropes hung high
exploit otherness as ideas to mate

terror with blindness as metaphors rage
hopelessly against the physical form
exterminate the rats, to sell and buy

narcissism, echoes heard on shortwave
inflation, high gas prices, lengthy lines
general malaise, ill at ease, buy more to save
hungry for war, the world full of landmines
tragedy, just a word, before the storm

Malbork ~ Friday, December 6, 2024

Affluence and influence set the stage
for history as a playground for fools
forget the past, suffer consequences
lightly taken, powder kegs to engage
unseen forces, ignite the spark of war
engagé, committed to reason, tools
needed as expenses to mend fences
consequences result in false outcomes
enter the world of neglect, sets the score

adjust the angle of the mirror, dark
notes of memories, silence, trauma, rape
direct the anger towards the flash, spark

ignorance for lies, appalled, mouth agape
nothing for stone cold black diamonds, all thumbs
forging clumsily ahead, maladroit
litter the oceans with senseless debris
until the clean-up crew appears
ears grounded for sonor as to exploit
natural resources and leave the rest
clutter with infrastructure underground
empty of value, walk away, garbage

serve the gods, cash money falls from the tree
ego makes for good presidents, their fears
transform domestic policy, mortgage

terror for equity, trauma is best
haunt ghosts with horror films in surround sound
epic cataclysmic disaster shows

sample the product, junkies feel no shame
transport the goods, profit from retail cost
androids await instructions, blue light glows
golden, ingots replace the ancient frame
eclipse the sun, billionaires ever lost

Αἰγείδης ~ Friday, December 6, 2024

To lead a life of purpose and impact
of course, my impacted wisdom tooth jests

lost without a porpoise or dolphins in
endorphins swimming in my brain, intact
as augmented fourths and diminished fifths
drives the unbroken and unimpaired in tests

as sobriety, the blackbird's field, djinn

liberated in battle, a tritone
imparts tonal difference with parting gifts
figure eights on thin ice, broken hymen
epileptic, elliptical orbit

out of sorts, on the floor, as Ahriman
forges in the smithy, flying carpet

pretend without a goal, a new smartphone
understands, at twenty, my weeping rage
ridiculous to imagine this life
putrefaction and putridity kind
obey the laws, matter, organic sage
swindled again by empty promises
embryonic curfew cuts with a knife

absent the rabbit hole, without sun, blind
never to see the light, who cares, she dares
deliver her half-witted, half-brother

impartial as heroes in provinces
maritime, black flag sails, a father drowns
protect the family name from the other
artful as guile, sly, cunning, wily clowns
crack the stink bug, right-handed hamsa fares
toll roads with total disregard, infract

At the Salt Mines ~ Friday, December 6, 2024

The world is full of ignorant people
honestly blind to how others may feel
even though they know no one likes the smell

when a housebroken puppy poops indoors
obviously, the owner feels the need
rightly so, to teach a lesson, the nose
lightly touches the poop, how sensitive
dogs are to scent, they know they have done wrong

if the owner is ignorant they push
shit up the nostrils of their dog, they think

forever the dog will never forget
unwittingly, defense mechanisms
lay the groundwork for a broken psyche
like master like servant, the dog as slave

ordinary power politics play
full-court press very rarely while at work

ignorance is everywhere, be cautious
given the climate of the holidays
no one knows how stress will affect someone
ordinarily, people full of cheer
resolve anger issues badly, lash out
as others ask why, hidden, in plain sight
needlessly neglected, unattended
taunting, bullying, between two people

perhaps it sounds strange with the holidays
engineered as a respite from the cold
old boy office politics reigns, hatred
particularly of what is other
leave consideration aside, the dog
ends up with kinder owners, still fucked up